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I hope you did not miss out on this !

I am driving on the road from K to N in the middle of a snowstorm. I can barely see the road in front of me and I wonder if I will end up in an accident. I was just in a place with no or little snow. Where did all this snow come from? I saw E - she was wearing her old brown winter jacket with fur collar. She must have forgotten to bring a newer one because this jacket is more than ten years old. I think it is afternoon and I am heading home.

Now I am walking out through a door into the pouring rain. I am wearing a dark coat and pull up the collar over my mouth and ears. I regret I did not put on my hat, and for a second think about getting it. I am in a city and I cross the street. The water is not especially wet even if it is raining heavily.

An attractive man stops me and asks me about the house I live in. Pretty quickly I realize he is interested in how he can get an apartment there, and even asks about A and how he could get hold of him. I tell him no and feel somewhat appalled at the bluntness of his question.

I am outside my parents house. I have ran around it with someone. We might be chasing a small child-sized person (a gnome, elf or something not entirely human) who has taken a baby. At the entrance of the house we find it with the baby. It is holding the baby and inspecting its every limb and feature. I rush over to grab the baby before it hurts it even more. It is disgusting - this creature - in its total unawareness of right and wrong. I hold the baby in my arms, it is now wrapped in a blanket and I feel happy it is safe. The little creature might now have become a dachenhund and is biting on a bird's foot (or some other animal with a bony and slender leg) - and I reprimand the dog and remove the attacked animal from its reach. In a moment I realize we don't have a dachenhund and I wonder why we act as if it's our dog...

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The Association for the Study of Dreams has a wonderful forum .

A military drill near a vertical drop. Ropes thick as treetrunks are hanging from the plateau we stand on. I see one soldier jump instead of using the rope - but far down I see him grab onto the rope, just before he hits the ground. No fear. I look at the soldier standing next to me and we exchange surprised looks.

Mountains. People I know are descending another vertical rockwall. They are holding onto ropes. It requires a lot of strength. M.S. is letting himself down with the rope - and even further down I see a white car being roped down... I wonder if there are people below the white car. I am not going to do it. I will take another route. This looks too steep and risky for me. Some people desire to do this, I don't. I look out over the vast landscape of mountainpeaks and ruggedly bare mountainbacks... I see J.S. and a young boy - they are determined to make it. I think they think it is refreshing. Everything takes place in twilight.

Now I am at some kind of hotel near the mountains. I walk along a hallway when I see that D.N. is about to enter his room. He climbed and trekked the mountain. We exchange greetings and agree to meet up later. In the hallway I meet another childhood friend. I am glad they both made it back and tease my friend for being such a 'bad boy' as to try to climb a mountain. He laughs and walks off.

I am walking with a group of people from another time and place. We are dressed in Medieval clothing and are on a journey to a new place. Our old place is no longer. There are about 30-40 of us. Now we rest on the edge of a ravine that separates two large landmasses by a deep valley. On the other side an arid and historical scenery. Someone points out places where other people had lived ages ago, and after straining my eyes I can see some towerlike shapes in the old rock - that must be the old castles they built inside the bedrock. The old towers reach up several hundreds of yards. Nothing alive remains there. I look in the opposite direction, to where we are heading, but we still have a long way to go. I still see lifeless or hostile land - marshes and rocks everywhere. We also have to be careful. I think we might be in a land where magic is reality.

We come to a house and begin climbing up to the second floor. There are no staircases and so we have to pull ourselves up with the help of ropes while placing our feet on small ladder-like steps. It is difficult and it takes strength to do it. The climbing continues. I look up when climbing and see that this house has many more levels. I wonder how many more floors we have to climb and where we really are going. At one point I get compliments on my climbing skills from the person behind me. This seem to take place in modern times even if I am still with the travelling group from the past time period.

Outside on my parents' lawn a group of students have gathered. A teacher who is in charge of another group is nearby and her students have some kind of large pet spiders. The students have trained the pet spiders to chase after them like dogs would chase humans when teased. The kids know how to make the spiders stop as well. I look at them play and feel both fear and fascination. It is so strange and ugly. I walk a little too close and feel the presence of a spider - it notices me and I can tell it is getting ready to chase me. If I run now it will certainly chase me. I hate this. I walk away in fear. I hope it won't follow me. How can those students be allowed to have these pet spiders? It is getting dark and the pet spiders run around in awkward patterns on the rolling lawn - the children are only larger versions.

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... it is night .

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A's diagnosis was similar. Finally an answer! My poor beloved A !
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Escapism at its peak. Love it!
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Childhood memories ...

John Malkovich interviews me. He is very sly. I am stuffing large white envelopes and close them up. He looks on. I wonder if I will get paid for this. His eyes are on every movement I make. He is both scary and fascinating.

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I play Scrabble . Nerdy but oh so fun !

And then I dream...

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Medieval warmth
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A dream about cats
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I am in M or I. I am walking in a city but come up to a barred area that is about 200 square yards large. It is encircled with chicken wire fences but I somehow manage to get on the 'inside' and begin to walk alongside one of the fence walls. I suppose to avoid traffic on the other side or something. As I walk I look in toward the flattened sandy square and notice a large hole in it. I try to guess why someone would have dug this hole. I continue to walk but realize it will be difficult to get out since there seem to be no opening close by.

Now I am at a run down motel in M or I. A is here and we are supposed to stay here overnight and then leave early in the morning. We are also accompanied by some other people. We have dinner with them in a nice courtyard restaurant and while dining we relax.

Now it is morning and I look out through the motel window - I see a post office, two young world travellers are carrying letters into the post office. Nextdoor to the post office is an anti-terrorism office. A reminder of where we are.

A and I walk toward home. We come to the same sanded square with a hole in that I earlier passed by. We walk through it and now I see other people there. They are covered in chemical protection suits! Now it dawn on me that this is a chemical waste dump! There are scientist down there in the hole collecting samples and they are heavily protected. A and I are walking in shorts and T-shirt! We look at each other - are we contaminated now?

It is the third time the cat attacks me. It is visibly annoyed with me and I know what it will do to my hand if I try to move the cat. It always bits into my hand and refuses to let go of my right hand. This time is tries to claw me - but with less ferocity than last time. I will fight that damned cat next time I see it!

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Please send his family good thoughts.

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Good dog !